When the Push Fades and the Questions Begin | Diary Entry - 10th June 2025
I’m a human.
And today, I truly felt it.
This wasn’t about physical exhaustion. It wasn’t the rains. It wasn’t the usual workplace fatigue.
It was something deeper... an emotional stillness, almost like a dull silence inside.
For the first time in my life, I didn’t feel that inner push to come to the plant.
Usually, I’m the kind of person who beats the siren, who walks into the premises 10-15 minutes early, who catches the stillness of the morning before the world wakes up.
But today, I reached just as the siren rang.
Post-lunch, I was late.
And I knew why - I wasn’t dragging my feet; my spirit had slowed down.
The morning prayer was brief.
No elaboration, no talk - just the ritual.
The HOD meeting was even shorter.
And the DPM (Daily Production Meeting)? Cancelled.
Why?
Because both the Mechanical and Process HODs were away, off to Lome for general and personal purchases.
The plants are struggling.
Rain has intensified. Equipment is giving up. Logistics are off. Motivation is thin.
But strangely, I forgot to mention something yesterday - something cheerful.
I was in a good mood then. As I walked down the stairs, I spontaneously took a selfie video, reciting our Safety Pledge - word by word, confidently, as if etched in my bloodstream.
And at the end, I smiled and asked:
"Can you recite your pledge too?"
If you say it every day, Dil Se, it becomes part of your DNA.
It was my way of keeping the spirit alive - even when it’s raining outside and within.
Afternoon rains were relentless.
The kind that don’t ask for attention but command silence.
The kind that makes you pause and question things.
So what did I do today?
I kept my mind busy with other thoughts - constructive ones, strategic ones, some even philosophical.
Because one thing is clear to me - and has been for a while now:
You don’t become a Plant Head unless there was a failure before you.
And if you fail too, it’s usually not personal -
It’s structural. It’s systemic.
A new head can survive and succeed only if he can solve the old problems that sank others.
And if those problems are beyond his control?
Then even experience, sincerity, or sleepless nights won’t be enough.
Because Superman is fictional.
And the best leaders are still only human.
In the evening, amidst the patter of heavy rain and a quiet office, I received my flight ticket - Delhi to Surat.
It felt real now.
My exit isn’t just a date anymore. It’s a boarding pass.
So what’s next?
That’s the big question, isn’t it?
For now, I don’t have a perfectly scripted plan.
But I have clarity about a few things:
I will take some real rest.
I’ll reconnect with the people who matter.
I will reflect and recharge.
And then, I’ll begin the next journey - with the same fire, just in a different direction.
Because experience never retires - it evolves.
And lessons learned here will travel with me.
Key Points – 10th June 2025
Felt emotionally disconnected from the usual drive to work.
Arrived at plant just on time, not early as usual; late post-lunch.
Morning prayer and HOD meeting were brief; DPM cancelled.
Mechanical and Process HODs were away in Lome.
Plants are struggling, worsened by intensifying rain.
Recalled making a selfie video yesterday reciting the Safety Pledge with a message: Practice it daily, Dil Se.
Spent the day reflecting on leadership realities - how a Plant Head often inherits unresolved problems.
Received flight ticket (Delhi to Surat) - departure feels real now.
Ended the day with quiet introspection about what comes next.
Sometimes, we don’t need answers - we need pause, patience, and perspective.
And today was a day of all three.
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